Why a Black Cloud?

I will explain the "black cloud". My mother's family from time to time would say that if anything bad that could happen would happen to them and called it the black cloud. I find this to be true in my life almost on a daily basis. Just like a friend my black cloud is present everyday. Let me make this clear...I talk about my black cloud in an entirely jokingly way. I laugh about most things, even when they are bad....it's all going to be alright. My faith is such that the Lord will provide and even if I don't know how in the world we are going to fix whatever has happened, he knows. So please any of my bad things that I mention, know that I am laughing and remaining faithful while I am typing! And please LAUGH because I am!

He that is afraid of bad luck will never know good" -RussianProverb

Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope

Friday, September 16, 2011

My Biggest Fear

Ok maybe NOT my biggest fear but definitely a fear of mine. Public speaking. Then why do I keep having this feeling that it is something I HAVE to do? Public speaking through my blog is easy..I can type away, hit publish, panic for a moment about the judgement someone may have about my story and forget about it. Well until I look at the "stats" page and find out that it has been read...yikes!

 Do I really have something to say that anyone would want to listen to? Would my "story" really help someone else if it were told in a condensed version in person?

I keep going back to the time I took a zero in Ms Brewster's English class instead of having to get up in front of my classmates and recite a poem. Would I freeze like that? Could I get it all out without crying?

What to do? Can I polish a speech enough to make it meaningful and interesting? Questions...that's all I got tonight...

So as I close tonight, I can say I am thankful for questions because I know I will eventually have the answers. That is how God works. He will calm the fears and answer the questions. If it is truly what I am supposed to do, stand up in front of people and tell my story, I will know in His time.

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